What's next?

Just had my appraisal today. It goes according to my expectations. A boring *guess?* for work done in the last 5 months. Was told that I did my work well and can be trusted to perform the tasks efficiently. However, my performance rating will be benchmarked against every executive in the department. Against Mark (4 years in product control), Hengyi (1.5 years) etc. Certainly dun think this is fair but I kept my mouth shut given that it would be a futile attempt. How can I be benchmarked against seniors who are aiming for managerial positions soon? Looks like the coming 2 months would be my last in Middle Office.

Had lunch with my former boss today to seek his opinion on my next rotation. One of the few Christians I know in Barcap and whom I can seek godly advice. Once again, it seems that prospects within Finance are quite limited (for me, who's keen on research and analytical stuff). Even his department, which seems rather interesting, only takes in MBA graduates.

So what's next for me? Do a MBA? Hang in there and hope for the best? Really got to trust God with His plans for me. A place where I can shine forth His Glory and be a "salt and light" to the world. Indeed a struggle between personal desires and godly destiny. May I be atuned to His Heart and be obedient to His cause, whatever it be for me.